So, I just watched Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part Two for the first time since I saw it in theaters at midnight…over a year ago. If you know me, this is weird. I freaking love Harry Potter. And it got to the point where I couldn’t even watch the stinking movie because I couldn’t emotionally handle or fathom “the end” of Harry Potter. Which is just kind of stupid slash amazing. Stupid because it’s just a book-it’s just a collection of words arranged in a pattern on hundreds of pieces of paper. You know? It’s a book, it’s a movie and I should be able to deal with it ending. But that’s kind of why it’s amazing. That I can’t handle it ending? Because it is just a book, but it’s SO MUCH MORE THAN THAT AT THE SAME TIME. How cool is it that J.K. Rowling wrote a series of books that people feel so emotionally attached to that they can’t bear to think about it coming to an end? That Harry and Ron and Hermione become so much a part of someone’s life that they can’t handle their stories ending? I think that, while I am totally ridiculous, this ability to bond with a book and a writer’s ability to write such a book is awesome.
Sometimes I think all of this isn’t worth it. That I should just stop reading and watching movies because of all this, really, emotional turmoil. Because sometimes reading makes me more sad than it makes me happy and I just think that I don’t have to feel all of this. I could just stop reading and never have to get so emotionally attached and feel awful when I finish a book or a movie.
But then I think that, for all the sadness that the end of Harry Potter brought, it never outweighed the happiness that the series brought me as a whole. And I know that, regardless of everything, if I could go back to when I first cracked open Sorcerer’s Stone, I wouldn’t change a thing. Because standing next to Harry and saying goodbye to him at the end sucked. But it was worth it.
How cool that I got all this from a book? All this love, and friendship, and sadness and joy? I think that’s the coolest thing ever. Thanks, J.K. Rowling. You definitely changed my life.